I woke up and cried you a river at dawn. This feeling is overwhelming. I cant sleep tight with such heaviness in my chest.

Signs You’re Falling in Love

You think of them when you get dressed in the morning

You make doodles of their name absent-mindedly

You forget to eat

You realize you miss them when they are not around

You can't concentrate on things for long, or at all

You catch yourself smiling

You can't look at them

Day 2

In a very packed bus, there you were and there I was,just next to you. Your back was turn against me. Just inches apart, I could lean in a little closer and my head would already be resting on your shoulder. That translates how close we were.You hadnt the slightest idea how badly I wanted to. Your hair was a nice shade of dark brown under the sunlight. It was away from the typical short cut most guys had, they were a nice length of short and long. A little damp, boy it looked so amazing.  I had to pull back from rustling my hands through them. Your smell, oh your smell..... I don't know sweat scent could be so attractive, but they are. On you. I didnt gag. Blended with your cologne of mystery, your smell is hypnotizing.

It's enough to say, you are my exception.

Advice, no thanks!

I only got myself to blame.

That night, I really should have listened to her when she told me to just let it be but I've always been so stubborn. I went ahead to ask anyway. Because even when I ask people for their advices, I don't actually heed them. They'll be just as good as wasting precious breaths on me.

If I hadn't done what i did then maybe just maybe, you wouldn't have gotten together with her, given how you were so heavily dependant on my opinion. This bullshit wouldn't have existed, and i'd be at a happier state of mind right now.

Ties

I've re-evaluated our friendship multiple times and i think that what's keeping us together is the feeling of familiarity and attachment. We don't care for each other anymore. Maybe we never did in thee first place. A twist of fate brought us together.

Do you think we'll be at devastation if we lose each other? Why are we still hanging on to this? Isn't it best if we get going with our separate ways?

Auspicious 11

I get it now. Statistics have  probably proven to show significantly high data of wishes having a higher tendency of coming true when it's made on 11:11. 

What seemed to be improbable before, has taken a turn now.

Here's why. An 11:11 wish came true for me yesterday, and today, despite not making any wishes at that timing or at all, i was slapped by another dream, and watched it transform into reality. Later to find out that, it happened at 11 pm on the 11 of Jan. 11. This could just be a discovery of my lucky number, which i previously thought was 18. Such revelation. 

However, my most ultimate faith is in God and believes in no other forms besides Him. And that miracles do happen if it's within His will.

I am starting to sound so devotional and pious, gosh. True, nevertheless.

His ways

Yes, he was a smart boy.

He never made it look like he was keen to have her around, making himself looked neutral about the whole companionship. Their audience, people who watched them, analyzing their every rhythm from the surface, would've thought that it's just her, her all along who wanted him, craves his presence. Some also thought she was in desperation to have him.

Could she blame them? Certainly not. A smooth, innocent portrayal of himself had been painted. He's the target, the one she was after, and the lucky one who could tell a story of how a girl was very much into him.

In actual fact , she never had any feeling of fondness toward him. Like most typical college girl, she came in to that new school, new environment and she fell deeply for a senior. Love at first sight it was! It was her first. See, he was never in the picture.

But his careful and nice words and sometimes teasing too, his flirtatious and occasional long glances, his actions, put it together and serve it on a silver platter, and tell me how could a girl not think that he liked her? 

Excellent for the craftiness! Even she was impressed by how he pulled it off so well.